Of course, it would turn out that I would get pink eye from my kids. I went to school yesterday with it because I was on medicated eye drops and I wasn’t supposed to be contagious. I also barely had a speaking voice because I am almost positive I had the viral infection that my children originally had. I woke up today and my eyes are so swollen and crusty! I kept having to blink to try and see without it being blurry.

So I stayed home today and took some time to rest and reflect. Reflect on life and if what I am doing makes me happy. I keep telling myself it will make me happy. But, right now the current state of teaching isn’t making me happy. The politics involved with teaching are too much. It is putting a strain on teachers and giving them no support. I feel like I am on a sinking ship. Do I stay and see if the sinking ship will start to float?

On top of all of this, I decided to check my emails today which was a mistake. I had an email from the foster licensing supervisor today explaining that in order to end our foster license we have to finish filling out paperwork to be licensed for this year. Then after receiving these documents they can discontinue our foster license. Does this make any sense? Oh, and if we don’t comply they will have to do an additional home assessment, interview all family members, and possibly make a finding of noncompliance for not turning in necessary verifications.

We finally received guardianship over my son so there is no reason for us to continue fostering. We only became licensed for him. So to complete the paperwork to be foster licensed for this year to just cancel this license does not make any sense. We would have had guardianship earlier if they did not consistently lose and misplaced paperwork we had already sent in. Or not to mention the fingerprints that we had to get done 3 times in order to become foster licensed. It is ridiculous that it took us so long to become licensed and now we cannot discontinue our license without all the additional jump through hoops and threats. Good luck talking to my babies. I am sure they will tell you how awful it is in my home or my son who is the happiest he has ever been now that the guardianship is finished. Since he was constantly moved around from house to house in the foster system and had no consistency in his life until we pushed to have him in our home.

The foster system is a joke.